i really dont know what to say. its damn fucked up. yes FUCKED up. i cant find any other words to describe my feeling now. everything is going against my way now. i really dont feel like saying or typing that word. but im damn pissed off now.
whats the fucking problem. dinner at 6/7pm you send message at 4pm? what the fuck is this. im in the middle of something, and i want to know the time and location to make some adjustments. what the fuck is wrong with it. instead of getting my answer, i was told to shut up. fuck? now its become my fault. cant i have the right to "complain " abit about the last minute decision?
i know we all agreed. every 1st saturday of the month. but, did everyone take it seriously, im not commenting about that. i have been making the 1st saturday free cancelling all my outings trainings blah blah blah. and it ended up being postponed. never mind. i still keep my saturday free. i was supposed to go for a bbq with my friends tonight. i declined it, why? because today is the 1st fucking saturday when we are supposed to have dinner. now im being ACCUSED of not taking it seriously and sitting back waiting for someone to organise the shit?
to be honest, u can go ask any BB primers where was i last night. 7pm at HQ. did logistics until 11pm. "rest" until 2am, continue logistics. all the way until 4.30am? which part of the timetable am i very free and i can organise it? how about the 11pm-2am period, then only 13 people will make it because i'll be dead. from 4.30am onwards, it became busier all the way until 6pm. IF, you send the message at 9am, i would have time to make adjustments and not waiting for your message like an idiot?
maybe you dont know how to do this. IF, this is a fucking last minute thing. like 2hrs to actual event, dont message. call 1 by 1. i know its hard. but, u get the immediate answer. instead of spending 1hr 50min waiting for everyone to reply then 10min to go down to whereever we are supposed to meet.
come on. people in UG and councils dont plan camps or outings 1month in advance for nothing. so i suggest after the dinner, immediately settle the next dinner location and time already. and make sure evryone makes it free. this is just a fucking suggestion. if you think im bullshitting, fine. treat it as i never said it before. and, the next time, i dont give a damn whether my event is on the 1st saturday anot. i wont decline or reject it. whichever comes 1st, i'll accept it. im not going to trouble myself, and trouble anyone anymore.
damn fucked up now. maybe its because of the lack of sleep. i dont know. im feeling damn weird today. fuck. treat it as my fault today. i pms. but, whatever i said im serious about it. especially the paragraph above this.
sorry.
to AQ team : never mind about the position. u guys completed the race. and its your 1st time joining. its a good result nevertheless. next year u can always try again. put in effort in every training me wencong or hengyong conducts, and top 10 is not really hard. jiayou.
